waiting...

Do you ever feel like you need to have all your ducks in a row before you can do something? For instance, in college I thought that I needed to be this perfect version of myself before I could date and marry Mr. Right. Thankfully, God used people to speak truth into my life and help me to realize that sometimes finding Mr. Right, dating him and marrying him is a part of God's plan to sanctify me.
Part of why I hadn't updated for a while is that there are many areas of my life that aren't quite up to par in my standards. A few examples in no specific order:
~the house: not nearly as clean or organized as I'd like
~the kids: not spending as much intentional time with them as I'd like
~my husband: not spending quality time together as much as I'd like
~my personal holiness: not spending as much time in God's Word or prayer or journaling as I'd like
~various other tasks: there are phone calls I want to catch up on, crafts and projects I'd like to be further along in, etc.
And those are just the things that came to mind as I am sitting here this morning. But I guess what hit me this morning is that if I wait until all of those things are where I'd like them to be, I'll probably never blog again. Seriously.
I've always struggled with balance--finding that if one of those areas is where I'd like it to be the others are lagging behind. But what I really need to do more of is praying that God would direct my steps and that He would show me what is truly important each day. I probably need to say no to some playdates more often and turn off the computer more frequently. Basically, I need to be more disciplined in doing the things that really count--i.e. the intentional time with the kids, the time in God's Word and in prayer, quality time with my husband. I need to prioritize, instead of letting my days just fly past me and being frustrated with what I'm not doing right. Thankfully, I have a God who is faithful and mighty and He has brought me to this place and will strengthen me for the tasks He has for me. He is full of grace and mercy and His truths give me courage for each day.
Anyway, I'm not sure if this is just a good outlet for me or if someone else needed to be reminded of these things today, as well, but either way...I'm logging off now. Turning the computer off--at least until naptime! ;)--and going to be more intentional.
"Therefore be careful how you walk, not as unwise men but as wise, making the most of your time, because the days are evil." Ephesians 5:15-16
"So teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom." Psalm 90:12