~He watches too much t.v.
~They need more vegetables
~He doesn't get to play outside as much as them
~She gets drug along everywhere
~She doesn't eat much variety
~I don't read to them as much as I want to
and the list could go on and on, those are just the ones that came rushing out first. I'm sure you can relate.I am hoping to blog more often. About the simple silly things and about the deeper things that I am pondering from time to time as well.
This past spring, I was completely overwhelmed with life. I felt as if I were failing on so many fronts--as a wife, mother, homeschool teacher, friend, etc.--and I thought about blogging about the pressures that were weighing me down, but in the end it seemed to raw and I didn't have the time to really sort through all the thoughts that I was considering posting. We were thinking of putting the older kids in school this coming fall, but in the end we decided not to for now. We'll keep praying and taking this journey one step at a time.
This summer, my husband and I had the privilege of being able to get away for a week without the kids. It was tough to leave them for so long, but when given the chance to take a free Mediterranean cruise, you take it! I think that break from reality was good for me in many ways. Clearly, it was refreshing for my husband and I to be able to spend time together and reconnect. Also, it was so good for me to realize how much joy my chaotic life brings me. I missed the crazy that is our norm. To top it off, the week before the cruise my cousin's husband died suddenly. This past weekend, my husband's grandfather passed away. Between the time away and the deaths, there has been a lot of reflection. I am thankful for the craziness that is our four kiddos and our family. And just so we're clear, it hasn't been all rainbows and kittens since I got back, here's a little more truth:
~My girl has refused to take a morning nap the past three days, choosing instead to cry her head off, then only nap for an hour in the afternoon before waking up stinky.
~Our 2 year old has decided that time outs aren't a big deal and has been showing us just how stubborn he can be. (My husband likes the quote, "Beatings will continue until morale improves")
~The 5 year old is the fairness police and likes to inform us of any decision made that is not, in his perfect estimation, fair.
~The 7 year old, in his rush to set the table, broke a glass and the pieces went a million different directions with three of us standing in the middle of it barefoot--of course!
I'm sure I could go on, but the truth is this life is unpredictable and challenging. And sometimes I let that truth overshadow the most important truths:
God is good
God loves me
God promises to never leave me or forsake me
He doesn't promise that it will be easy--in fact, there's much talk in the Bible about the trials and tribulations, they shouldn't shock us. But when they come our way, whether in some shocking form-a sudden death or illness or accident-or in the trials of this day to day life that can be overwhelming in their own right, we can trust that He is there with us and will be our strength and our shield. I need to cling to Him and His strength because I am weak and He is strong. Just like Will sings to us:
That's a simple truth I need to remind myself of often.